Today

I had a very good friend of mine visit the center today, so I got to give her a tour. It was fun showing her what I do everyday and show off some of my limited skills. :-) I definitely enjoyed having her there.

Later on I had to do another independent trip to Oxford station where I have never been. This panicked me and I cheated so much. It's like I would be standing and had to check that I really was on solid ground. How dumb is that!!! Well when you start to panic all sense and logic flies out the window. I was so unsure of my cane and didn't know what to do with myself. After I started heading back I ran into my instructor and told him I was mad at him for sending me out by myself. I really felt like I couldn't do it and was not ready. Sounds freaked me out and I was so unsteady. If I had stayed calm I might have been able to do it, but I really don't feel like I know the art of observation enough to determine what I am doing or where I need to go. I was also panicked about ending up on the tracks like Jeff did. I think it was too much of a stretch just yet and left me so very very discouraged and upset with myself. It's one thing to anticipate what you know is present b/c you've been there before. It's an entirely different matter to figure it all out from scratch and not even know the layout of the place.